Ugh. I need to lose some serious baby weight. The depressing thing is that I have about 20 pounds of baby weight to lose and about 15 post-baby pounds to lose. Right, my daughter is only a little bit over 3 months old, but I have gained that much weight. If there is one thing I am really good at, it is gaining weight really quickly. There are plenty of reasons, but the main one is that I can eat more than anyone. Now that I am at home and have few distractions (except for a screaming child), I eat almost constantly.
I lost some weight before I got pregnant and I did that by religiously watching my calorie intake and running on my treadmill. I need to lose 35 pounds to get back there. It is also the weight I was when I got married, so it is a pretty good weight.
My current plan is to try to follow Paul McKenn'a I Can Make You Thin plan. He has a special series on TLC and there have been two sessions so far. The first was a simple eating plan. When you are hungry, eat. Eat what you want. Eat Consciously. And stop eating when you are no longer hungry. I am a huge emotional eater, so it is difficult for me to tell when I am hungry or not. I also eat a lot of crap, so only eating what I want is difficult. Eating consciously is defined as eating with no distractions and eating one bite at a time. I am finding that it is really depressing to eat with no distractions because I eat almost every meal by myself. My husband leaves for work before I get up and gets home after I have finished dinner, so it is just me, the wee one, and faithful fido. I'm working on it.
This past session was about emotional eating. Paul did this accupressure sequence that is supposed to help overcome emotional eating. I just started it today. I'm having a hard time deciding whether it is emotional eating (upset because my husband is late coming home because he has a lot of work to do) or if I am actually hungry.
I did get on the treadmill this morning while the wee one was still asleep and walked for 2 miles. I didn't walk too quickly, mostly about 3 mph, but my sciatica is still bothering me a little. I am trying to get out with the wee one in the stroller and fido, but today we got more snow (please, will it ever end?), so my only option was the treadmill.
I have decided to try to bargain with myself. I love shopping. Especially online. I think it may be close to an obsession. Anyway, I also love Petunia Pickle Bottom diaper bags. They don't look like diaper bags, they are gorgeous. And expensive. About twice a year, they have an outlet sale on discontinued or very slightly imperfect bags and one is coming up in late April. I have bargained with myself that if I lose four pounds by April 22, then I can buy a bag. I weighed myself this morning and I weigh 204.8 pounds. Yikes. That means I have to be at 200.8 pounds by April 22. I can't imagine that I won't be able to do it. Once I meet that goal, I'll devise a new bargain.
